My Eyes Are Above The Waves

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Just wanted to give some of you just a glimpse of what has been going on. No excuses except one tired Mama. To be honest and transparent  I am in a bit of a dry spell. Seems these days I am grasping for alone time with Jesus. I believe Jesus in this season is just simply throwing me for a loop. That is good, ha! He is switching up and stretching me. So, I pray I am even more honest with Jesus and you all. It is an accountability thing, so here we go! Back in the saddle as they say.

This morning I was standing at coffee maker and had an overwhelming feeling of fear of failure. A “feeling” that turned into a “thought” (hmmm sound familiar??) As soon as that thought ran through my mind I said to myself ” Jesus, meet me right here. I am choosing today to direct my eyes back to you and not what I feel or think.”  A simple heart cry from a struggling piece of flesh. A heart cry, I believe there is something broken and beautiful about a heart cry. I am not saying replace a heart cry with prayer, but there are moments on our journies where the weary can only cry out from their heart. That heart cry invites Jesus to come in like a flood. That heart cry is healthy and welcomed by a tender and merciful God.

A heart cry of a wounded warrior is the beginning battle cry to the divine warrior, Jesus.

A heart cry is really a heart turning to Jesus, it is repentance. Repentance for walking without talking; running without resting. To me, there is just something miraculous and full of wonder about a child of God’s heart. I am captivated by how gentle and caring our omnipotent God can turn a heart of a wandering child. There is just something about it, I really can’t describe it with words. It is powerful, yet so graceful. Every single child of God knows the indescribable brilliance of God turning a heart. It is God’s glory, and His name is Jesus.

I don’t really have anything profound or significant to type out today. Just in case you are in the same rocking boat I am in today. Know this, a heart that cries out to Jesus is a heart that knows Jesus. It is a heart that knows the grace, mercy, and love of God.

It wouldn’t be me without scripture, so I am going to leave you with this Psalm 123 MSG. I chose The Message translation because it just fits this morning. Feel free to read in any translation. I really believe with all my heart all the things that are occurring in our lives, world and specifically in the United States. I would be safe to say every child of God is crying out in our hearts today Psalm 123. I am praying today, in my small prayers that our heart would cry out to Jesus and would lead us to the feet of Jesus every time in every situation. I sure do love each precious eye that reads these words. It really is an honor to get to share my heart with so many. Today, my friend in the waves of life there is mercy. So, with that being said when things are looking bad or even terrible I am reminded of this:

My eyes are above the waves, my eyes are drawn up toward heaven for help.

I am a servant that is watching, waiting, and holding my breath for your mercy God

Mercy, God, mercy! <3

Thank you, Father, for your mercy; Jesus Christ. In Jesus glorious and mighty name, Amen

Psalm 123 Msg

1-4 I look to you, heaven-dwelling God,
    look up to you for help.
Like servants, alert to their master’s commands,
    like a maiden attending her lady,
We’re watching and waiting, holding our breath,
    awaiting your word of mercy.
Mercy, God, mercy!
    We’ve been kicked around long enough,
Kicked in the teeth by complacent rich men,
    kicked when we’re down by arrogant brutes.

 

Learning and Leaning 

The past couple of weeks have been downright exhausting. My Mother had surgery on November 29th, a total knee replacement. It has been a challenge, and I will spare you the details. I kind of giggle to myself as I write this because I’m right in the middle of the details, there are wildly hilarious moments and my sides hurt from laughing so hard and some when I have wanted to scream, cry, and shout. Some moments simply overwhelm us, but they are just moments, and they soon enough will pass.

I’ve learned something this week…

I’ve learned that usually during the most insane moments of our lives, ya know the kind – when everything is on pause for a family member to heal. When you lose your job of eighteen years. When you get the phone call that your loved one has passed on, we know these moments. Where life suddenly changes direction in a split second. It’s these moments that are small in time, but the crescendo in a symphony. They are fast and intense and full of drama and downright exhausting.

These mini moments don’t define us, these moments refine us.

They come out of nowhere like a hundred mile an hour curveball. We think we can just swing at it and hope like heck we nail it, but more often than not we swing and frustratingly, and miserably strikeout.

That has been me for the last two weeks. If you can imagine me ever trying to hit a baseball (insert hysterical laughter here). I thought about that for a second.  I thought about myself watching my children play sports and, wanting them to knock that ball silly and hit a home run. Not necessarily to make me proud, but to show them that they are fantastic!

Then I realized…

The fact that they are standing on home plate, ready and willing to hit that ball, no matter what came from the pitcher, the other team! That was what mattered that they showed up not just for themselves, but for their team.

Some times we need to know that even if we strike out due to frustration, anxiety, grief, and failure. We have a Father in Heaven that is wild about us! Sitting in the heavenly bleachers, cheering furiously, for us to hit that ball out of the park, and if we don’t, He still will be cheering just as loud. Proud as a peacock! That’s what we call it around here! When is the last time you even thought that God, himself is proud of you??? He’s not just cheering you on; He adores every breath you take. There is nothing, that could ever stop that love, that grace.

I’m learning He doesn’t care about how far it goes or how awesome the crowd cheers. He only cares that I show up, that I am present in the moments, and most of all NO MATTER WHAT I DON’T QUIT!

I’m learning when I do strike out, and I don’t have what it takes to hit it out of the park.  He is still cheering but, as any parent does He puts together the perfect game plan for PRACTICE.

What I’m learning is He is putting me in incredibly challenging and chaotic situations and impossible odds to challenge, to strengthen me, to mold me.

I am learning that to do what He wants I need to learn how to play in the batter’s box and as the outfielder. I need to learn how to slide, to run like a deer,  to stay on base, to be aware of the game but, keep my focus on the goal.

I need to learn how to throw the Word of God,  and I need to find out how to catch it by listening and spending time with Him. I have to know the object of the game is endurance; that is making it to home plate.

I need my forehead to be as strong as flint so, I can run with champions. I need to learn teamwork and wait for the teammates and team He drafts me to. I need to learn how to be ready and, how to catch(listen) and how to throw a ball (learn) so, I can get the other team out and us in! So we can win souls for the kingdom of God. I need to learn how to lean into the pressure instead of resisting pressure and allowing the weight to slow me down and allowing it to take me out of the game.

I am learning how to lean; when I lift my eyes and I’m coming off of third base leaning into a steep curve and, then running with all I have. I will see and hear the loudest voice saying “Run! Kim, Run!” “Run! Home!”

No matter what game we are facing, we can find strength in the leaning and not the ability

We are never without leadership even when our team has given up or, the other side has a six-point lead, and we are in the bottom of the ninth; exhausted and beaten up with no hope in sight.

We always have our Father in the stands seeing, knowing, and understanding the odds but whispering ” Just lean in, then mount up with wings like eagles and soar!” with the biggest, widest, smile on His glorious face.

So, when you feel like there is no hope, no team, no coach, don’t worry your Father is in the stands giving you a look to just lean. Trust that! That my friends is the perfect and safest place to be in the whole game.

Don’t be afraid just keep running!

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Are You Shipwrecked?

 

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God, often sends us through the storms so that we will be shipwrecked and washed up to the place that will change us, but more importantly will change a whole island of people.

~Kimberly Ferren

 

We must hold on tight and trust Him. We are being tested to be entrusted with the gospel of Jesus Christ. Faith is being brought forth through many trials and, tribulations so our faith, love, and hope may strengthen as we grow in our relationship with Jesus Christ. James 1:2, Matthew 5:12, Romans 5:3, 1 Peter 1:6 and, we know that in the book of James God says to not just be hearer’s of the Word but doers (James 1:22).

So, let us rejoice and be joyful in our suffering because we have a higher hope in Jesus Christ. The most profound scripture that is most precious to me in the midst of trials and tribulation is:

Romans 8:18

I consider that our present sufferings are not comparable to the glory that will be revealed in us.

When there is a corporate storm that inflicts many, and several others are going through the hurricane with you and around you just remember to breathe and know He is God alone. Every single one of us handles storms differently, and there is always a temptation to play the blame game.

Listen, we have to remember who and where our trust and hope remains; that is in Jesus. God always speaks to us, we have to be careful not to leave His word. The word of God is how He speaks and guides us along with confirmation, and meeting us in his word.

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If we are not careful, our flesh will tempt us to give way to the storms and let the wind have its way! No, that is not who we are in Christ! We can stand in the rain without giving way, through Jesus Christ.

In Acts 27:25 Paul says: ” Do not give way to the raging storm I believe God is faithful and I trust Him to complete His will just like He told me!” (my version check it out for yourself) Shipwrecked on Malta is the title.

Maybe, you are shipwrecked? Not understanding and wondering

” What in the world is going on here?” “Where are you, Lord?”

In Acts 28 we see the title ” Paul’s Ministry on Malta”

Maybe, just maybe the shipwreck that landed you on what seemed to be a deserted island is exactly right where The Lord intended you to be?  (Read Acts 28)

Verse 3 says But when Paul had gathered a bundle of sticks and laid them on the fire, a viper came out because of the heat, and fastened on his hand.

So, Paul just had been through a storm that busted up the ship he was on, Paul, drifts on the shore alive, just like God had said. Now He is gathering up sticks and a deadly snake bites him. What does Paul do? He shakes the snake off and continues.

Just like Paul, we as Christian’s will be bitten by the enemy.  Paul, didn’t sit down and start screaming saying: ” God, why have you forsaken me?” Paul shook that bite off. Paul was bitten, but not bitter about his circumstances. We can do the same thing. We can choose to trust Jesus when it seems all hell is breaking loose.

Further down we see suddenly why Paul was shipwrecked on Malta. We see that God knowingly had a purpose and a mission to save a whole island. Read the whole chapter to see for yourself.  The whole island was saved because of a storm that shipwrecked Paul.

Are you in a storm? Are you coming out of a storm only to find yourself shipwrecked and abandon with unfamiliar surroundings? Can I pose this question to you? What if God intended for you to be at a physical place but the only way you were going to get there was through a hurricane that was going to wash you ashore only to be bitten by a deadly snake bite of the enemy? What if through it all, it was God’s will so a whole island could be saved? Would your temporary discomfort be worth many souls?

So don’t give way! Don’t compromise! Remember though the valleys and the mountain tops you have been guided.

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For it is God who works in you, both to will and to work for his good pleasure. Philippians 2:13

There is a great temptation in our flesh also to play the blame game, and we should remember as children of God sometimes the storms of life are merely to blow us to where God wants us. Whether that’s physically moving us, or spiritually moving us, we put our trust in God and know he is faithful to complete the Good work He has started in you!
I want to leave you with these verses. Luke 1:45 and Psalm 107:20

 Psalm 107:20

He sent out his word and healed them, and delivered them from their destruction.

This verse is my life testimony! Jesus delivered me into eternal life and out of bondage! Praise God!

Luke 1:45
And blessed is she who believed that there would be a fulfillment of what was spoken to her from the Lord.

Thank you, Father, for rejoicing over me! Thank you, for guiding and speaking to me! Lord, let your hand be over my life to guide me today and land me right where you need me! Let your Word lead and guide me in all your ways, Lord, help me to hide your word in my heart so, that I won’t sin against you. Lord, give me the wisdom and understanding to apply and adhere to your Word through the Holy Spirit. Place me right where I can live out the promise you spoke into my life years ago! Lord, help me to honor and glorify you! Lord, we love you and bring our minds hearts and souls to you! In Jesus beautiful name Amen!